Changing Seasons... DAILY

I know that some of you out there don't want to have anything to do with snow. I can understand you, but I don't follow. We have all 4 seasons here, and I love it. Last week we had days around 70 degrees, then the next day we got 4 inches of snow.

We had a few nice days following, so all of the snow has melted. Today they were predicting another storm. When I left work it was raining. But the clouds were looking pretty intense. I got home, but instead of sitting still I went to see an early movie at 6:30. It was lightly raining still, and getting a little colder. When I departed it was a blizzard.

I was pretty nervous. I was in my car, not my truck. The car doesn't do too well in the snow. Luckily I put some new rubber on it recently. I parked near one of the exits. When I opened the door I could hardly tell it was my car. The snow was already about 6 inches deep.

Well, it was pretty slick, and on the way home (I live about a mile from the theater) someone was stuck on the road. This made me really nervous, because I had a long hill to climb right there. I was glad to make it up the hill... then I followed an SUV through my neighborhood so I could follow in his tracks. I powered my way up my driveway and into my garage. WHEW!

This means I am working from home tomorrow... and my boss may not make it back to town until Thursday.

Other things that are changing...

For the past 5 or 6 weeks I have been seeing Mary. Somewhat out of character for me, I have taken it really slow. Being the typical guy, I usually rush right into sex. This time it's different. Something has been making me hold back. She is attractive enough, and we have a ton of things in common, but my head was telling me to avoid going past kissing.

I have realised that all of these negative feelings were good to internalize. What I now realize is that I am just not excited about her. I kind of feel bad about it. This is so hard when you actually like the person, but I don't want to lead her on, or waste her time. There's always that question as to why I am breaking it off. It's going to be asked, and just saying "I am just not into you" seems pretty cold. This is where being the "nice guy" is so hard. The past couple weeks I have know this was going to need to end. There is never a good time to do it. I'll have to use the bandaid method.

Recently I started taking an herbal suppliment, St. John's Wort. I have read in a couple places that it is good for fatigue and depression, which I have been feeling a lot of. It seems to be helping me with my attitude at work, and keeping me from straying from tasks. I have recognized that I do that a lot. I may not continue it through the summer do to some of its side effects of photosensitivity, but it seems to be helping.

I have joined a "Meet Up" group this week. My friend Laura is a member. She usually has me tag along to a bunch of their parties, but on Friday people were giving me a hard time because I hadn't joined (and I missed out on a few good parties).

Friday was an interesting night. One of the ladies in the group organized an outing for her birthday. A bunch of us met for sushi downtown. There were some ladies there that I had not met before. The only seat left when I got there was next to one of them. Sharon was quite pretty. I was surprized how easy she was to talk to. We got along really well through dinner. Sharon was asking me a lot of questions about my life, kids, work, etc. She then tells me she was 7 years older than me. I was quite surprized. She certainly didn't look it. She was pretty proud of it, as she should be.

After dinner we all headed to a club across the street. I started buying shots of tequila. The band was pretty good. They played a lot of classic rock. It just wasn't great for dancing, so we all headed to another club.

One of my favorite bands were playing at the next club. They describe themselves as an 80s tribute band. The drummer is an old friend from high school. They take songs from all genres and completely rock them up and make them their own. Every time I see them I am surprized at some of the songs they cover.

We danced our asses off and closed that place down. I am not used to having that much fun, or being out when the bars close. One of the guys was just being a slub. The funny thing about that is I am usually the guy acting like that. I am wondering if the St. John's Wort is bringing me out of my shell too.

If I get a hold of some of the ebarrassing photos from the night I will share :D